I don’t do blogs.
I’ve never been one to blog but I think this shall be good for me. A lot of new beginnings to come here soon. New job, new start with my love, new travels, new perspective on life…perchance. I’m stressed a lot. I don’t always like starting new things. I like to think that I do but it scares me. Not sure why. I don’t like to mess with how things are just in case there is some sort of conflict. So, even if I don’t like how things, I try to leave it that way. Whatever keeps everyone happy, right? Sure. Currently I am listening to Young boys by Sin Fang. Not new. I should get back into new music. I used to love discovering new music constantly. But I’ve lost my touch with that part of happiness. I’ve been such a bore. No running, yoga, constant hang outs, drawing. I love to draw. Just for myself. I don’t want to disappoint others with expectations of how my art used to look &I don’t want to try to reach their expectations. I’ve just gotten lazy &somewhat listless, I suppose. Not just with my art but with most everything. I’m an INFP. Introverted, intuitive, feeling &perceiving. I’m a dreamer. You may say I’ve started to loose myself in others. Feeling kind of pressured when I shouldn’t. I want to make everyone happy, I always have. But I’ve got to go back into myself to be sure that I am still happy. You see? I don’t expect anyone to read this but me. But if you do read this, if you are reading this, know that I just want to be understood. Like everyone does. I want the best for everyone. I don’t mean to be selfish or mean or cruel. I don’t think I am, I try my best not to be. But sometimes I think I could be. Anyways, I’m going to go watch Being Human (Uk version) &eat some pizza. Good bye. Have the best day of your life. Or atleast try.
-Diamond Ideozu
