I don’t do blogs.
I’ve never been one to blog but I think this shall be good for me. A lot of new beginnings to come here soon. New job, new start with my love, new travels, new perspective on life…perchance. I’m stressed a lot. I don’t always like starting new things. I like to think that I do but it scares me. Not sure why. I don’t like to mess with how things are just in case there is some sort of conflict. So, even if I don’t like how things, I try to leave it that way. Whatever keeps everyone happy, right? Sure. Currently I am listening to Young boys by Sin Fang. Not new. I should get back into new music. I used to love discovering new music constantly. But I’ve lost my touch with that part of happiness. I’ve been such a bore. No running, yoga, constant hang outs, drawing. I love to draw. Just for myself. I don’t want to disappoint others with expectations of how my art used to look &I don’t want to try to reach their expectations. I’ve just gotten lazy &somewhat listless, I suppose. Not just with my art but with most everything. I’m an INFP. Introverted, intuitive, feeling &perceiving. I’m a dreamer. You may say I’ve started to loose myself in others. Feeling kind of pressured when I shouldn’t. I want to make everyone happy, I always have. But I’ve got to go back into myself to be sure that I am still happy. You see? I don’t expect anyone to read this but me. But if you do read this, if you are reading this, know that I just want to be understood. Like everyone does. I want the best for everyone. I don’t mean to be selfish or mean or cruel. I don’t think I am, I try my best not to be. But sometimes I think I could be. Anyways, I’m going to go watch Being Human (Uk version) &eat some pizza. Good bye. Have the best day of your life. Or atleast try.
-Diamond Ideozu
Well…I read it. 😉
You’re young and idealistic so your views don’t really surprise me. None of us has the right to sit in judgment upon others so I accept what you’ve written as an expression of where you are “at” right now. If I could add one thing it would be this: tomorrow try to focus on someone else. That is, find someone (anyone really) and do something to help them in any way you can. It might be as simple as encouraging that person. I can almost guarantee you will feel more “alive” and that person will as well.
I do like helping others &I know exactly what you mean by that “alive” feeling. Yes, this is a post of where I am “at” right now. Thank you for your comment!
Great to hear. I hope you have a great day. No stress; just progress. If you meet an obstacle, go around it but keep moving forward. I need to do the same. The thing is – we all do. Take care. 🙂