Last night I was reminded of some conversations in a time of my life where things weren’t as great as they are currently. Because of that, I felt pretty down last night. I didn’t get any sleep. I’ve been laying on my couch getting on &off Netflix &smoking since 11 pm. Needless to say, I don’t feel much better now that the sun is “up”. I’d like to blame daylight savings but one hour doesn’t really throw off a full nights sleep. Not for me, at least. I don’t feel so as down, I’m not upset or sad, I just am. Its a content listless feeling, I suppose. It isn’t bad. But I would like company. Stars of the lid has been doing a good job but as comforting as this music is, it cannot give me a hug. Anyways, we’ll see how today goes. Cheers.
Hallo
March 7th, 2014.
Its been a while since I’ve gotten to sit down &write or blog. I’m feeling pretty grand. Everything is going alright. My travels were side tracked, but thats life. I’ll get going eventually, it’ll just take some time, prayer &more careful planning on my part. I’m currently at my aunt’s place watching my dogs &the house. I always thought I would love living alone but it is quite, well, lonely. But then again, this is a big house &I always imagined myself living alone in a studio apartment in a larger city. This won’t be for long though. My aunt will return home, as will my sister, &my love &I shall get our own place soon. I’ve been getting off of the couch &away from Netflix a little more. Going outside in this beautiful Ohio weather &being around people. I’ve even been sketching. I try not to regret anything but I do regret letting myself get away from serious art work. If you don’t use it, you’ll loose it, right? I’m going to start setting some goals for myself. I hate doing that because it forces me to think about the future. I’m strange. &Obviously, very lazy these days. But here we go, goals for this summer. Or, just goals for now:
-Get a cherry mountain dulcimer
-Travel somewhere with friends
-Get into a faster paced yoga reutine
-Sell macrame &pieces of art
I think that is a pretty ok list for now, right? Sure. Whatever. Okay, well, cheers.
